Friday, June 11, 2010

My New Journey

Sometimes life throws curve balls. You have to just get out of the way and go with the flow. I usually don't get very personal on this blog because it's not about my life away from writing and great YA books. Today is the exception because I have big news that has to do with my personal life and writing.

If you've followed this blog for any amount of time, you know that I write YA fiction and have been doing so for about 5 years. Not a long time by some people's standards, but I've taken it seriously in hopes to making a career out of writing. Last year, I queried many agents in hope of finding someone who loved my story as much as I did (after around 12 edits). I came close, but not close enough. In the time of writing the first draft and the following 12 edits of that story, I was off of work (as the company I worked for closed) for about six months time. I loved being a full-time writer, spending my days in the library, on my deck outside or at Panera working 4-6 hours a day. It was the best time of my life, despite feeling as if my head would explode from the story swimming in my head 24/7. In a way, that was the most complete I had felt ever. I was proud of how hard I worked and how I kept myself motivated when I had nothing hanging over my head.

Unfortunately, that time came to a close when my unemployment ran out and I received a job offer. That was two years ago. Since then, I have slowly lost motivation, not because I thought my writing wasn't good enough or I didn't have ideas. In fact, I have two novels in different stages of work. One is a few chapters shy of being a first (rather rough) first draft, while the other is in it's infancy. The problem was I was slowly being sucked of all creativity from my job. I took the position thinking I would be there for only a few months before I found something more suited for me...again, that was two years ago.

To be honest, I didn't realize how bad my situation had become. My husband and I have been talking about my dream, to try to write full time again without the worry of having to find a job constantly in the back of my mind. Our talks changed from "one day" to "maybe you should try it". Even as of a week ago, I thought we were still milling it over as "one day" I would quit and focus on my writing. I was unhappy at my job, but isn't everyone? I thought it would never happen, because how many people get to pursue their dream? Not many.

I started to talk my situation over with family and friends. To my surprise, everyone was supportive and thought that it was time to move on, leaving my job behind me. How many moms, no matter how old you are, would support quitting a stable job to write (and not get paid)? That's when I realized how much this job changed me. Everyone around could see how much I was suffering and how I pulled away from things that made me who I am, except me.

I'm writing this post to share my big news with all of you. As of June 18th, I will be a full time writer, living my dream and hopefully one step closer to getting my work published. It's a big step, I'm nervous as hell but I can't pass up the opportunity. Who could?

I'm sure I will be sharing my scary new journey into writing full time on the blog. I hope some of you will find it interesting, but I know all of you won't. Please let me know, so I can mix it up a bit, throwing in a few book recs, etc. There will be good days and bad, but the bad can't compare to a bad day working a soul-sucking 9-5.

Next step, packing my belongings at work, cleaning off my desk at home and deciding which WIP to dive into. Someone pinch me!

8 comments:

Bee said...

Good luck, Tami! I hope you make it..and with such dedication I'm sure you will.
We are here with you :D

Megan Hoover-Swicegood said...

I'm so happy for you! This is an amazing thing you're getting to do. Reading your story felt like I was retelling my own story - I did the same thing about two years ago. I had to go work part-time somewhere though b/c spending all my time alone at my desk made me truly mad, but I still get to call writing my full time gig and it's been fantastic. Best of luck to you - I hope you get exactly what you're looking for.

Denise Jaden said...

Yay, Tami! I wish you all the best on your new journey!

Leona said...

OMG you are so right! I am so happy for you. I am in that needing a job and I am working Temp for Ad Staffing. When they thought they had found a full time job for me, I couldn't write. Not even in my head. Just signing up had taken away something.

When I worked Insurance, it sucked every ounce of creativity out of me. I hated my life, me, and everything around me, but we had income. It was hard.

STICK TO YOUR GUNS. GET IT DONE! I am so happy for you. *jumps up and down and squeals for you

Medeia Sharif said...

Years ago I had a soul sucking job. I still managed to write as an escape, but it wasn't the same as it is now. I work at a job that's more pleasing to my soul. So I still work full-time, but I'm more creative and happier during my off hours.

I wish you the best and I hope you're happy.

Tami Klockau said...

Thank you so much everyone! I really appreciate the words of encouragement and support!

Tracy Belsher said...

I'm so proud of you, Tami! You're doing it!!!

Tami Klockau said...

Thanks, Trace. That means a lot. :)